Sapne!

कुच्छ  लम्हे थे 
कुच्छ  सपने थे
पलकों  पे जब  सजाये थे
कुच्छ याद रहे कुच्छ भूल गए 

यादों की परतों में 
कुच्छ सपने भी धुल गए
वोह सपने जब याद आये
तो पलकों को भी एहसास हुआ
की साथी थे वोह कुच्छ पल के
कुच्छ साथ रहे कुच्छ दूर गए

कभी  आते है  वापस वोह
लेकिन शिद्दत नहीं उनमे अब
जो साथ थे वोह हकीकत भी बने
सपनो  को छूने  से एहसास हुआ 
की साथी थे वोह कुच्छ पल के
कुच्छ जागे से थे कुच्छ सो गए

कुच्छ सपने ही रह गए 
कुच्छ हकीकत बन गए

kuchch lamhe the
kuchch sapne the
palko pe jab sajaye sapne the
kuchch yaad rahe kuchch bhool gaye

Yaadon ki parton mein
kuchch sapne bhi dhul gaye
woh sapne jab yaad aaye
toh palko ko bhi ehsaas hua
ki saathi the woh kuchch pal ke
kuchch saath rahe kuchch door gaye

kabhi aate hai wapas woh
lekin shiddat nahi unme ab
jo saath the woh haqueeqat bhi bane
sapno ko chune se ehsaas hua
ki saathi the woh kuchch pal ke
kuchch jaage se the kuchch so gaye

kuchch sapne hi rah gaye
kuchch haqueeqat ban gaye

Time to switch off humanity?

I am an avid follower of this series called 'The Vampire Diaries' (ya, I know). In the show the protagonist, Elena,  is now a vampire and has switched off her humanity, cause she wants to stop feeling. Yes, that does make her an insensitive bitch. But she is indifferent to any emotions and goes around with her life.

Sometimes, I feel if its time for me to switch off that humanity as well. Yes of course I wont switch it off in entirety, but switch it off nonetheless. Its better to be indifferent to people and incidents around you I guess. Cause most of the times, they are not worth the emotions, of love, anger, hatred, frustration, hurt, whatever. Just go about your life, concentrate on whats closest to you. No point extending the circle of what you 'feel' to more than the home. 

My sensitivity is like the egg and the chicken story, i am not sure if I am sensitive because I am an artist or I am an artist because I am sensitive. But this sensitivity isn't helping. Especially in today's time. Better to turn off the humanity to guard yourself from after effects of 'feeling'. Indifference.

I try

I tried
They held back

I jumped
They dismissed

I dared
They ridiculed

I fought
They sneered

I still try
And they laugh

But one day i would smile
Not laugh, just smile

Story of a Fallen Angel

He embraced her with all her wickedness. He loved her unconditionally. He gave her a name and a home. Her cunning games pierced through his heart, he still didn’t leave her side. Cause he knew, she would have no home, no name, no place to go.  He couldn’t live his lifetime, her evil play ate him in the end. She lives on, still plays her scheming games, still piercing through peoples’ hearts, she still lives on.

Devi nahi

Recently there have been numerous crimes against women... from strangers to families to in-laws... women have been at the receiving end... just a coupla lines for them

मै मै हूँ तुम्हारा साया नहीं 

मै चल सकती हूँ तुम्हारे पीछे पीछे 

परन्तु मै कोई अनुगामी नहीं 

हूँ मै सूरज की किरण 

परन्तु शीतल है मेरा मनं

हूँ कठोर मै शिलाओं जैसी 

परुन्तु कोमल है मेरा अन्तकरण 

सींच सकती हूँ तुम्हारे जीवन का थल 

परन्तु चाहिए मुझे भी अनुराग 

औरत हूँ देवी नहीं 

आराधना के नाम पे न करो तिरस्कार 

हूँ में भी इंसान 

इंसानों का दर्जा दो मुझे 

है मेरी भी पहचान 

बस उस पहचान की पहचान दो मुझे 

औरत हूँ देवी नहीं 

आराधना के नाम पे न करो तिरस्कार 

Mai mai hoon tumhara saya nahi

Mai chal sakti hoon tumhare peeche peeche

Parantu mai koi anugaami nahi

Hoon mai sooraj ki kiran

Parantu sheetal hai mera mann

Hoon kathor mai shilaon jaisi

Paruntu komal hai mera antkaran

Seench sakti hoon tumhare jeevan ka thal

Parantu chahiye mujhe bhi anurag

Aurat hoon devi nahi

Aradhana ke naam pe na karo tiraskar

Hoon main bhi insaan

Insaano ka darja do mujhe

Hai meri bhi pehchaan

Bas us pehchaan ki pehchaan do mujhe

Aurat hoon devi nahi

Aradhana ke naam pe na karo tiraskar

Ab bhi yaad aati hai

तेरी आँखों की गहराई अब भी याद आती है 

शामे मासूम की अंगड़ाई अब भी याद आती है 

उन लम्हों की बेपरवाही अब भी याद आती है 

आहिस्ता आहिस्ता नजदीकी अब भी याद आती है 

और भी लम्हे है जो यह दिन लायेंगे 

जो हमें आगे  याद आयेंगे 

अभी तोह हकीकत में ख़्वाबों को जीते है 

वोह सभी गुस्ताखियाँ अब भी याद आती है 

Teri aankhon ki gehrai ab bhi yaad aati hai

Shaame masoom ki angdai ab bhi yaad aati hai

Un lamho ki beparwahi ab bhi yaad aati hai

Aahista aahista nazdeeki ab bhi yaad aati hai

Aur bhi lamhe hai jo yeh din layenge

Jo humein aage yaad aayenge

Abhi toh haqeeqat mein khwabon ko jeete hai

Woh sabhi gustaakhiyan ab bhi yaad aati hai

Sher e bahaara

आये वह भी हमारे जनाज़े पे तोह सुकून आये

आये वह भी हमारे जनाज़े पे तोह सुकून आये

हम अपने ही जनाज़े पे हर भार बड़ी धूम से नाचे है

Aaye woh bhi humaare janaze pe toh sukoon aaye

Aaye woh bhi humaare janaze pe toh sukoon aaye

Hum apne hi janaaze pe har baar badi dhoom se naache hai




Ok, here is a little explanation for these lines.This comes because someone said to me that likha toh accha hai but what does this mean? Now, Janaaza means - funeral, but here I refer to it as my misery. So this is what the sher essentially means 


if you (lover/friend/family/confidante) come and share my misery it will give me some relief. 
Its always been me alone who has laughed off (celebrated) my misery every time all by myself.